Am I suffering from insanity?

honestly if you are competent enough you should know that it is wrong to kill someone and dont blame it on your psychoticness i mean atleast youre not schitzophrenic or some really messed up disorder...not evryone is happy with their lives but you never know if the future may hold something good or atleast worthwhile to live for and my philosophy on life has always been to live like flowers do as just existing and being happy that the day brings sunshine as cheesy that sounds... or as buddhists would say living without ego